A Bit Intimidating

I really enjoy reading blogs of my fellow Catholic mothers. My favorites are by far, Jennifer Fulwiler, Simcha Fisher, various authors on CatholicMom.com, and my friend Christine over at Domestic Vocation. They have been moms a lot longer than me and have unique perspectives on our vocation and Faith. With that said, sometimes I feel pretty intimidated in the blogging world. I am a new mom. I do not have it all together. I am just learning how to discipline (what a learning curve!), pray as a family (what is that?!), get my daughter to bed, and put God and my family first. To add to it, I struggle greatly with my faith. Between post-partum depression and anxiety, as well as the loss of two babies in miscarriage, I am not exactly the model wife and mother of trust. But, then I got to thinking, there are probably a lot of new mothers out there who need to hear that they are not alone. It is okay that we are struggling and learning our vocation. I cannot compare myself to someone who has been a mother for a decade or more. Honestly, the only Person or persons that I should examine my life against are Christ and Our Lady, of course that is easier said than done.

This blog is going to, when I am ready, delve into the deep and difficult places, as well as the joy and beauty of Motherhood and the Catholic Faith. I believe that there are other Catholic moms out there who need healing from miscarriage and post-partum. That is one of my driving forces for starting this blog. I know the resources are scarce. I know that sometimes you just need to read another person's experience to help abate the loneliness and pain of loss. I have started a draft on my miscarriage experiences, but it is not ready and I still have some tears to fight through. Sometimes you need to see that other women are suffering from the fear and despair of post-partum depression and know that it is not your fault. No matter how much you love your husband and child(ren) it is an illness that you did not cause (I know the major guilt) and it is a cross that you will make it through step-by-step, even though you feel like it will never end. I will write about the struggle to put Christ at the center of my marriage because I know that this is a life long struggle for all couples. I will write about the beauty and grandeur of our Faith. How I am learning to incorporate the liturgical calendar into our daily life. How I decide to celebrate Baptism anniversaries, patron/patroness feast days, and the various celebrations throughout the year. We are a celebration people and that is how I want my children to learn the Faith. I will share with you what I am learning from Our Lady's example of a wife and mother. There will be loads more I am sure.

I am a writer. Writing gives me great joy, it is theraputic, and it is an artistic outlet for me. It does not matter if I am the only reader of this blog or I am blessed with some readership. This is a great way to practice my writing, work to glorify God through my writing, learn more about Catholicism, and heal. Let's see where God wants to take us....

Have a very blessed weekend!